Well, it has been a few days since the passing of my mother and I must fully admit it has taken its toll on me emotionally. I have had years of practice keeping a “Game Face” when needed, so I may not always show how I am truly feeling. Just know, it hurts… a lot. I loved my mom more than anything else in this world; and, I still do.
But I must tell myself that she would not expect me to huddle up into a ball and fade away. She would want me to do what I need to do in order to help myself and she would have done anything that would have helped me along the way. That was what came over me this afternoon and what has caused me to put an end to my sabbatical.
I had been putting off my workouts because of the lack of ambition. But that is not me; that is not how I am. So, I picked myself up emotionally, dusted myself off, and I am going to slowly work my way back into my routine. Hence, the (x.1) label. Until I feel ready to tackle a full on regimen, I will do what I feel is best for the moment.
Please, feel free to leave a comment as the support helps tremendously, and I could really use it over the next few weeks. Thanks a ton and lots of love to everyone.
Very well said. Donna would only want the best for you. Your Mother was a very special lady and will be missed by many. She was a true friend. You will always miss her, and remember her often.
It is very difficult for us to go on when we lose someone that we love so much. The memories will always be with you, but some of the pain will subside in time, never go away, but lessen.
There is nothing you can do for her now, except what you are doing, making her proud.